My Goal

So I wanted to talk about my "diet" goal. Mainly for myself, so I can have it in writing. When I started it all I wanted to lose about 10 lbs. I don't know why but I think we all have a number we want to be no matter what it actually means in terms of our appearance. Well as it is now, I want to lose about 15 lbs because I seem to have picked up 5 somewhere along the way. The number isn't actually that important to me, it's just something by which I can follow my progress. What the "real" goal, well one of the "real" goals, is to just be a tad less jiggly. I like clean lines on things and I like them on myself too, I don't like soft rolls and curves. To me they stick out like a sore thumb. I also want to be healthier. So that's another goal, I want to eat healthier food. I want to be able to cut out a lot of crap that I eat. The problem is that I don't really eat that much real crap like fast food etc. so whatever I do eat is just not all that healthy which I think makes it a little bit harder. The solution I guess would be to eat more really healthy things and less not so healthy things, but as I mentioned before, when I'm hungry the first meal that comes to mind is a pound of pasta. I love pasta, I really love pasta. ramble, off topic.

So less pasta. More.... I don't really know what. I mean vegetables, yes but what else? Chicken breast, ok, got it. Some fish, mostly canned tuna but grilled salmon or some sort of white fish too, about once a week. And that's all I got, and that's the problem, these things have been in my diet for pretty much my whole life, and yet I still feel like that's not enough. I can't be a vegetarian, I would like to try sometime for...some time, but with my food allergies and laziness I really don't think I could realistically last any longer than maybe a month at best. I'm not a confident cook. I love to do it, but for myself. Whenever I have to cook for other people I get very nervous and stressed and end up making a salad or something. I have this huge fear of people not liking what I made. I don't really know why, I suppose it's not that big of a deal but I can't seem to shake it. And if I were to completely reinvent my diet I would have to cook for other people. Two separate dinners will not really fly in this house, I mean yes sometimes there's something that I don't like so I make something else for myself, but that can't happen everyday.

But anyways, #1 Get Fit #2 Eat Healthier.