Sometimes (often) I have days when I don't even want to say anything to anyone. I know that I have communication issues and I should work on them. I also know that when I try to explain important things to people, they listen to the first two words of what I say and then just assume the rest. I don't remember when I haven't felt misunderstood. I know this sounds like a very dramatic episode of a teenage tv show. It feels like it. I feel like this happens a lot in life, not only in mine, when people decided that because they cannot understand the legitimacy of something they tend to dismiss the idea of it as nothing or a cute hobby. But there you are, and you see that this is what you want and it will take time for anyone else to see the worth of it so you try and you work hard and you try and work hard and try and work hard and everyday people that matter most to you look at you and say "when are you actually going to do something?". Well...never. I guess I will never do the something that seems like a something to you. It would be nice though if you maybe pretended that you have some sort of faith in me though. It would. It's the worst when you feel like you accomplished something, and you're in a good mood and then boom someone opens their mouth and you just feel like crap. And any amount of motivation you had just goes away.
Yeah. It's definitely one of those, I am feeling so sorry for myself days. But I don't think that anyone else will feel sorry for me and someone's gotta do it and I'm all I got. Not to be dramatic or anything. ;)
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