You know how your day can just get so screwed up that nothing can fix it? You just feel like you have 500 pounds of stuff on your shoulders and you can't even stay standing. And you can't do anything else and you can't sleep and you just feel this big great crap all around you. You get scared because what can you really do? You want to do something but you don't know what. And you're all alone in this and it just sucks.

Sometimes I feel like I'm standing in a field all wounded and bleeding and people just decide to throw rocks at me. And I just feel like how the fuck do you expect me to get better and move and get somewhere if you're just going to keep throwing rocks at me before I could even get over our last meeting?

I know I will look at this post in few days and want to throw up. Sometimes I get so whiny that even I can't stand it but at this moment bitching about life on my blog is my best bet. Isn't that what blogs were made for?

I feel a little bit better now. Maybe I will go to sleep.