Stuff

So I cleaned today, so that's nice. I feel a little better about existing when I have a clean area to work in. Maybe I'll paint my nails a little later. I meant to do it three weeks ago but I didn't. Time really does fly, which is why I have to go now and do stuff that I haven't done and now the deadline is too close for comfort. 

I decided that my new goal for this blog is that at least one of my posts this year will be interesting and I will actually say something of value in one of them. Here's to hoping! 

My mind's racing from chasing pirates

letters. words. sentences. paragraphs. i am such a wonderful writer.

yesterday i couldn't blog because there was site maintenance or something of the sort. and of course i had so many interesting things to say then but i don't remember them now. i might be lying.

Approximately $25 million is spent each year on lap dances in Las Vegas"? This may be not true I don't know, I got it off the internet. Does the internet ever lie? I'm not sure. $25 million huh? I would've actually thought it was more. don't they have places that are open like 24/7? cheap people in Las Vegas. Do me a favour, if you ever are in Las Vegas and have a lap dance, tip your dancer well. I once knew a "dancer". I actually knew her from church. I love irony. Was that ironic or just coincidental? I'm not sure. I think it's a nice anecdote. "I know a stripper, I met her at church, har har har"... ok maybe it's not that funny or at all. I have to go chase pirates now. Bye. Peace. Love. Don't forget to tip your lady ;)

Everything happens for a reason

Or so they say. The reason I think is to learn from whatever it is that happens. This is where my problem occurs. So far in my life I have learned not to trust people and not to ever have faith in people, that wouldn't have been too much of a problem if it wasn't for a fact that you have to trust and have faith in people in order to be successful. You have to trust someone to help you out with what you want to do because there are very few things in this world that you can do just by yourself. But ever since I was a child all I have learned was that people let you down. I have enough of a problem trusting people and confiding in people and just being around people, these lessons of "one day for seemingly no reason this person that you somehow felt close to and somehow trusted will fuck you over". These are not good lessons for a person with commitment and trust issues. I mean at this point I cannot even see ever getting married because how could I possibly trust someone for the rest of my life?! That's a long time, well we're hoping, by we I mean I. And the thing is I have tried it both ways, I've been all out there and it came back to bite me and I've been a lot less out there and that came back to bite me as well. What is a person to do? Does one take out an ad in the newspaper?

"Looking for a trustworthy person without a bitchy streak to just exist and hang out with me sometimes, good hygiene and bilingualism mandatory. Must have opposing taste in men, can't look better than me in my clothes. Must be able to see past own nose, nose size unimportant" ?

Do people still read newspapers?

Short story long, my point is that I thought the point was for me to allow more people into my life but all my experiences with them make me think that the logical thing would be to run away from them. Me, Myself and I that's all I got in the end. Thanks Beyonce.

Paper Thoughts

Today I finished reading Paper Towns, I don't know how I feel about it. It wasn't bad. It wasn't not good. I guess it is fair to say that it was in fact good. Even if I didn't necessarily like the ending, it was good. It was thought through. There were some hard to believe parts, I don't think that people can just change overnight, even if a naked picture of them is being held hostage. Another thing I didn't like was something that is not exclusive to this book. The parents of the main character are both therapists and apparently according to almost every book and movie, they are sort of hippie like, clueless, let's-talk-about-how-this-makes-us-feel, likable idiots. I don't know which psychologists/therapists/psychiatrists these people are hanging out with but I know that 99% of them are nothing like this. 99% of them do not try to diagnose every single person they come in contact with for more than a second. 99% of them don't think that they are better than everyone else just because they have studied psychology/psychiatry extensively, that's not to say they don't think they're better than everyone else for other reasons, but it rarely is because of their job. So that annoyed me, luckily they weren't a huge part of the book.

When I was in high school I knew that high it wasn't where it was at for me. I had to go because it's the law and because you can't skip over it on the way to university and the real world, so I went. It was fine, but it wasn't the most important time of my life, I don't think that it really felt like it at all. I knew that when I would leave I was still a kid. I guess maybe a lot of people aren't kids when they leave. Some get married and start families, I always thought it was weird but who am I to call other people weird?

WANTED

These shoes are fabulous! I don't care from how many seasons ago they are! I WANT THEM! I will be starting a paypal donate account so that complete strangers can contribute to my AWESOME Shoes Fund. (That is a lie, I will not be doing that, but let's pretend that I will so that I can imagine that there is a possibility of me owning a pair of these at some point)

Just like heaven

Show me how you do that trick, the one that makes me scream, he said,

the one that makes me laugh, he said, and threw his arms around my neck,

show me how you do it and

I promise you, I promise that I'll run away with you, I'll run away with you...

.... You're just like a dream, you're just like a dream...

....You, Just like Heaven.

Sharing

Why do people feel the need to share their love stories in the comments of a song that talks about something similar to what happened to them? I think it is the funniest thing to read "people always say we should be a couple, and we laugh it off, what he doesn't know is that I wish we were" or "I was listening to this song with my friend once and he asked me if i ever felt like this and i blushed and he kissed me and we've been together ever since". I would definitely call myself a romantic, I enjoy cheesy and sappy movies and stories and songs but for some reason I think it's just so ridiculous to read people commenting about how their little hearts relate to the song. It sort of makes me want to say "I don't care about your love life".

WANTED

WHAT: Sunshine.

DESCRIPTION: warm, soothing, bright, calming, delightful.

WHEN: Immediately

Wombat

Wombats are adorable. I want one.

Hate

You know what I hate? When you're washing the dishes and you turn on the water to rinse them and the water splashes in your face. Yeah, that. I hate that. Well maybe not hate, I don't like to use the word hate. I prefer to save it for people like Hitler, Gadhafi, and Rush Limbaugh. (Just kidding about the last one, or am I?...)