Or so they say. The reason I think is to learn from whatever it is that happens. This is where my problem occurs. So far in my life I have learned not to trust people and not to ever have faith in people, that wouldn't have been too much of a problem if it wasn't for a fact that you have to trust and have faith in people in order to be successful. You have to trust someone to help you out with what you want to do because there are very few things in this world that you can do just by yourself. But ever since I was a child all I have learned was that people let you down. I have enough of a problem trusting people and confiding in people and just being around people, these lessons of "one day for seemingly no reason this person that you somehow felt close to and somehow trusted will fuck you over". These are not good lessons for a person with commitment and trust issues. I mean at this point I cannot even see ever getting married because how could I possibly trust someone for the rest of my life?! That's a long time, well we're hoping, by we I mean I. And the thing is I have tried it both ways, I've been all out there and it came back to bite me and I've been a lot less out there and that came back to bite me as well. What is a person to do? Does one take out an ad in the newspaper?
"Looking for a trustworthy person without a bitchy streak to just exist and hang out with me sometimes, good hygiene and bilingualism mandatory. Must have opposing taste in men, can't look better than me in my clothes. Must be able to see past own nose, nose size unimportant" ?
Do people still read newspapers?
Short story long, my point is that I thought the point was for me to allow more people into my life but all my experiences with them make me think that the logical thing would be to run away from them. Me, Myself and I that's all I got in the end. Thanks Beyonce.
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